Today he woke from his nap too early.
Only 30 minutes instead of an hour and a half. I'm so tired. This was my only "break" today. He cried and I sighed. I lumbered to his room and picked him up out of his crib. Two days from one year old, he's tall and lean from walking since 9 months. He's crabby today. More teeth coming, I'm sure. I held him and decided to put on some music while we walked around the house. "I didn't know I was looking for you. I didn't know there was something to find. Tomorrow you won't fit in yesterday's shoes, and I'm trying so hard to rewind." I put on the playlist I made a little over a year ago, called "Baby." I was supposed to listen to it while in labor, but this kid came so fast and furious, I never had time. I did listen to it in the few weeks before his arrival, and from time to time after. "You came to me as an empty cup. I didn't know love could ever be real. And everyday I try to fill you up with everything that I thought you would feel." Today I listened to his playlist, while I held him, and rocked, and danced, and sang to him. The songs I chose to welcome him into the world, now our serenade for a rainy afternoon. "I was there when you took your first step into a world that was wide as the sky. I held your belly there against my chest. I was there when you needed to cry." The words I had sung to myself in the car, while rubbing my big belly. I projected the person he would be into existence. "I never knew a friend could be so small and have a heart just as big as the moon. You know I can't stop you from growing up, I just wish that it wasn't so soon." I just held him, and I rocked, and I danced, and I sang. Two days from one year old, he nuzzled his warm little head under my chin. He reached up and put his hand on my cheek. "Today, tomorrow, forever I'll follow your trail. Just call my name." Song: "I'll Follow Your Trail" - Sean Rowe
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3/30/2022 07:06:59 pm
This is a beautiful post. I love how you wove your life with the words of the song.
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Teri Keys
3/30/2022 08:31:52 pm
So sweet! I love this post.
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