Today I am thankful.
I’m thankful for the neighbor that I don’t know, who stayed on her side of the street, but commented, “At least we can do this!” which is exactly what I was thinking about my walk around the block with the baby in the stroller. This morning after feeding my daughter, my son climbed up in the chair with us and said “Rock us, Mama. Your two babies.” And even though it was only for about 75 seconds, my goodness did I soak that up. I am so very thankful. Things are wild and weird. My mom texted earlier that, though the circumstances are awful, she was glad I was getting time home with my family. Truth is, lately I’ve been feeling very disconnected from my family. I’ve felt distant and overwhelmed and busy since I went back to work from maternity leave. I’ve felt pretty much like I don’t know my children, that someone else is raising them and my hour a night before they’re in bed is so hectic I don’t even enjoy it. I’ve been dreading my husband starting coaching the track season, knowing even more of the nights and weekends would be me doing all of this alone. This forced break, making time almost stand still, feels foreign and bizarre, but in some ways it feels good. I’m relearning my kids’ silly little mannerisms. Memorizing their faces in this season. I know if I don’t take it all in, I’ll end up missing this. I’m thankful in this moment for perspective, and slowness, and open windows.
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Teri
3/17/2020 07:19:01 pm
Definitely a positive. Enjoy your time with them!
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Noora
3/17/2020 07:21:11 pm
I have been trying to tell my mom we can't just keep hanging and she can't get it. It made her sad.
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Shelly021
3/17/2020 08:02:03 pm
Knowing the circumstances are crazy, enjoying the moment is exactly the right thing to do! Enjoy!
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3/17/2020 09:27:15 pm
Great point about reconnecting at home. During the school year home seems like our second home and I like the chance to get to reconnect. Good way to bring a positive to a crazy situation we are in.
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Susan Dillon
3/17/2020 09:44:53 pm
It's so wonderful that you have been given the gift of extra time with your two little ones, and that you know enough to appreciate it while you have it!
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Eugenia Kouts
3/17/2020 10:18:52 pm
Andrew just told me tonight that although he doesn’t like the situation we are in, he likes that we are home together! He started this conversation by asking his usual question “Will you be home late tomorrow?”
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Trina
3/18/2020 11:25:00 am
So true! Time to slow down is not a bad thing. Enjoy the moments!
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Sara T.
3/18/2020 09:37:08 pm
I love this. Beautifully written and captured. Lydia still asks me every morning when I pull her out of the crib... "Mommy you stay home with me?" She's so used to me telling her where I'm heading out to which so often doesn't include her.
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